Prakash Kumar

🌟 The last day of 2024 feels like the perfect moment to pause and reflect on what has been an unexpected and transformative year. As I look back, I vividly remember the final week of 2023, entering 2024 with moderate enthusiasm and a sense of steady anticipation. However, the year unraveled in ways I could not have predicted, bringing challenges on professional, personal, and familial fronts from the very first week of January.  🎒 The year unfolded as a mixed bag of deep experiences and travel. There were highlights, including one international trip, three visits to Goa, several visits to Delhi, and journeys to Uttarakhand and Sikkim. Yet, these moments of travel and exploration contrasted with an overarching sense of internal reflection and reconciliation. 🛑 2024 became a "Pause Year" for me—a time of slowing down, both physically and mentally, to prepare for the next decade of life. It was a year marked by introspection, as I grappled with errors, unmet expectations, ...

From the pages of my old diary, dated 1.05.2014, 22:23: I find myself traversing a critical juncture in my life. Having completed 50 vibrant years and on the brink of turning 51, I am acutely aware of a palpable sense that something vital is missing. The exact nature of this absence eludes me, casting a restlessness and causing a noticeable dip in concentration. Life in Patna is relatively settled, with a fulfilling job soon marking its fourth year. The passing of Cecilia dealt a profound blow, a lingering sadness that calls into question the purpose behind our toil in navigating life's intricacies. There's a tug between embracing more of life or seeking solace in spirituality. The path is unclear, and the motivation sporadic. Restlessness sometimes reaches such heights that I yearn for refuge, leading to irritations that take weeks to dissipate. I grapple with deciphering the signals—lust, an inner desire to find meaning in halting meaningless work—confused by the jolting of ...

Reflections on the journey through 2023 have been a profound learning into the complexities of life, akin to navigating through a maze of professional, personal, emotional, sentimental and familial challenges. As I sit here in the final week of the year, the external facade of control belied the internal maelstrom that persisted, known only to the depths of my own being. At times I enjoyed this inner struggle to come out of the situation. Throughout this tumultuous but remarkable year, I endeavored to employ every learned life skill and experience to weather the storms, yet often found myself in the throes of inner turmoil, occasionally erupting into harsh external manifestations. While there were moments of brilliance, quietness, and remarkable events, the overarching narrative was one of enduring internal strife, conflict, and confusion.The solitude which I was used to was no where. In the midst of this chaos, I grappled with the struggle to exist in the present moment, wrestling wi...

     Wednesday, 5th August 2020 will go in the World History and more particularly in Indian History for several centuries as the moment of triumph for the believer and worshiper of Sri Ram as the foundation was laid for grand Ram temple at the same place where it existed till 1528.    1528 was the year when Ram temple was demolished at Ayodhya and Babri Masjid was erected on the same land. It was a most cowardly and sinister act in the human history done during initial Mughal rules (1527-1761) in India. The Hindu faith were compromised , tormented through this act to send a subtle message to the majority Hindu community that their religious freedom , dignity  at stake with advent of alien muslin rule in the country. It was a moment of shame, fear, angst and frustration for the Hindu community in India and of their utter helplessness to stop such action. It left a strong imprint on the heart and mind of Hindus and it passes generation to generatio...

    I have keenly watched and notice that selfishness increases with the age. I mean selfishness to certain aspects of material life. Selfishness towards one's  health in old age should certainly increase with the age. But here I mean overly self- centered, self serving, stingy to others both emotionally as well as materially. As if life start revolving around few. The opposite of selfishness is self sacrifice who supports and help others.       It bothers me because my understanding since childhood was that with age one become experienced, exposed,matured and practicality of life makes one to understand the meaning of human life better and also the mortality. Life is not immortal and everyone has to depart and this should teach us more compassion, more support to others, more giving and helping. This is my understanding of  life maturing with the age ,inculcate the sense of giving  and preparing yourself to depart on a happy and giving note....

     The recent China-India conflict in the midst of pandemic Corona has confused many strategic thinkers as well as common people like us about its timing, need and its overall effect on the India-China relations and the  World order.      The way Chinese economy has grown in last four decades was unthinkable and it put China as the number two economy in absolute dollar terms but on the basis of purchasing power parity it already surpassed USA to become number one. And not only economic , militarily also China has advanced very rapidly.       The economic prosperity has helped China in reducing its poverty in record time and also raising the living condition of its citizens almost comparable to middle income countries. The World envy the growth and power of China and in return China seek to be treated as world power by rest of the world. Both are right in their perception, those who are envying China is also being threatened by the...

I set aside many a times valid reason to reach out to my friends, professional colleagues and relation thinking that I need to be humble , understanding ,rise above little things and flexible to understand their side of story or stress which causes them to react like that. But what  I have noticed that due to this they take me granted . I now entered into my final phase of life and many of my own dreams are unfulfilled. I have to now focus more on meeting my unfinished agenda since life is running fast. Comfortably another 15 years are left to sign off .

     Letting go things , persons and places on a perfect note which you love the most   and become integral part of you is an Art. However letting go of strong emotions , feelings and desires which captivated you is a bigger Art and requires accomplished practice. How to let go these feelings which becomes fabric of life on a harmonious note without any acrimony,fight,bad mouth ,bad intention and so on !!      This cannot be done at once .It needs practice and learning of previous such unsuccessful exercises of letting go. It also needs blessings of the place, environment and above all motivation from entire body ,mind and heart to become successful.      One should also know this that letting go is akin to death. Both requires moving on to a place of surrender to what is , and allowing for a transition to something new. Failure to do so will trap you forever in the land of " no more and not yet". Letting go and moving on a...